My fears

Alright well I have already expressed some large fears of mine in my blog but I am most likely going to repeat them in here again because I am kind of just spitting out my thoughts here anyways so why not.
My last entry talked about my fear of being alone. That is most likely the biggest fear of mine. Thoughts always pass through my head like:
Will he leave me some day? Will i get married and will he fall in love with someone else? Why does he even care about me, what makes me better than all the rest to make him only want me?
I know I said that a relationship revolves around trust and if I truly love him like I say I do then i should trust him, but I can't help but ponder these things sometimes. Even if we don't stay together that long, I'll
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While in the middle of writing this draft, i ended up stopping midway to go to bed. The next day my boyfriend brought me to a park in my town and broke up with me. At first i wanted to beg him back, and i tried. It was one of the most pathetic moments of my life. But it's been a little over a week now and Each day I'm growing stronger and more independent. I realize that I don't need a relationship to keep me happy, especially being my age, i can do so much and work so hard. With a boyfriend I'm being held back. I want to do great things out of high school, and i want to work on my writing and artistic skills.
I'm going to get my head in the right place and take life one step at a time. I find it ironic that i was writing about being alone before i stopped writing this. But I'm posting it none of the less