Alone.

No one likes being alone. whether it be alone at home, single, or just alone in life.
I think we all feel like we're on our own in the world some days especially when we are faced with a difficult situation. As an adolescent, some days my head feels like it's in this permanent mental fog. It seems like the world is throwing so much at us at once. At some times i just want to lay in bed all day and watch the clouds pass by from my window.
(and sometimes i really do)
I feel bored in life most of the time. Life right now just isn't taking me into a direction that's very exciting. I want to get out and experience new things, Be somewhere else, far from my humdrum town, just to feel what's it's like to be in someone completely different's shoes for a small amount of time. I'd like to get out of the same routine and break the habit of following that routine.
I want to just grow up so i can do more and have more freedom to do what i like. But when i look at it, the amount of misfortune society can cause is incredible. It scares me, kind of makes me want to live under my father's roof forever.
It's when these thoughts are running through my mind, that i begin to fear being alone. It's one thing that i haven't ever dealt with well. Even as a little kid, I never liked being alone. I was that stereotypical child that rather sleep in mommy and daddy's bed than my own. Even now being left home alone makes me uneasy and I don't rest well until i know everything is in right order. Also Like every girl, I want to have a healthy relationship with someone who can make me laugh when i'm down, hold my hand when the going gets rough, and stay up late talking about everything and anything. I don't think it's asking for too much, I don't need some kind of handsome man who can sweet talk me to no end. (although cheesy pick-up lines are the best) But even though I'm only 15, knowing there's a guy out there who will hold me and cares for me is just one of the most comforting feelings. Even if he's not right beside me at some times, I'm still at ease knowing there is someone.
Having a boyfriend older than you during high school is difficult though. You know it most likely won't last. When he gets out of school and goes to college or even starts working full time, the only thing you can do is just hope that the feelings you have for one another will work like glue and hold you together when  big changes begin happening. Although when I'm thinking about this i wonder if I will ever be with anyone else, and what they'll be like. But when I take a look into society I don't see many respectable male figures, who don't drink, do drugs or are just complete pigs. There are the select few who you'll meet who are truly decent people, but coming across them seems to be nearly impossible nowadays.

Teamwork

As easy as writing about sports could be I'm not writing about teamwork in a basketball team or anything like that. I'm writing about Dating and relationships.
I think the real meaning of being in a relationship is so overlooked nowadays, especially in high school. Nearly every day I see couples making out in the halls, fighting, and even girls crying in the bathroom. A lot of couples seem to have this big problem, they don't seem to communicate as much as they should. When they have a problem they just hold it in and let it bother them rather then talking it out with their significant other. It's a terrible thing to do because when they do fight it all comes out. If they talked about these problems before they could'v realized it was all a misunderstanding and the issue could've been resolved sooner. Or if it was a real problem it could have been either talked through or the couple could'v realized sooner that maybe things just weren't working out and they just need to end things. But because they don't do this it all comes out in a bigger more serious fight and could possibly end in a break up.
Nowadays I never see couple staying together, they "fall in love," get married, fight, and get divorced. If they don't get divorced, cheating is usually an issue.
I don't like the idea of marriage. Marriage is helpful when it comes to financial reasons, but I feel like I shouldn't need a big fancy wedding and a slip of paper to tell me that I want to be with someone forever. Seeing so many couples get divorced nowadays has been causing me to lose faith in love. I feel like if I'm going to potentially get divorced someday, why bother with the marriage. It saves a lot of money in the long run. It's not that I am afraid of commitment, I just feel like it's something that you both really need to want.
One thing I hate though is cheating on your partner. I just don't understand. If you'v lost enough feeling for someone to actually go out and do things with someone else then why stay with that person anymore. I personally hate it because my real mother cheated on my dad 3 times, and his new wife has cheated on him as well. I hate seeing my father upset. He is taken advantage of way too often. I love my mother and i always will of course but It hurts knowing she did and I don't want to become like her. The same goes with my stepmother as well. I think if your going to love someone so dearly, then you need to respect them, they are not there for you to mess around with when you want sex and you don't just have free access to their emotions that you can manipulate as you wish.
There needs to also be lots of trust. If you can't trust someone, you can't expect to get anywhere with them. Emotionally and physically.  I think trust plays the main role in a relationship and without it, a couple cannot function.