Day 2 on blogging

Well here I go again.
One thing that i wanna touch upon on my blog is religion. It has always been a very opinionated topic.
It's also something that is constantly on my mind. Questions often pass through my mind like
What happens when we die?
Will i just dream? Or will it be dark and thoughtless?
It's something that i fear the most. I know none of us want to die. But it's part of the cycle all of us living things go though. The only thing scarier then dying though is being lonely i guess. So i also guess in comparison dying doesn't seem so bad, if it means not being alone in the twilight of our lives. But its truly a selfish thought.

But as far as religion goes, I don't believe in a god at all. I used to have very strong catholic beliefs growing up. Although when my thoughts started becoming deeper, i realized how unrealistic the idea of god was. Instead I believe in a superior power. It's not a specific higher being that created all life today but rather the Universe itself. It's always changing and shifting, It's an infinite process that keeps on going. We, being the people on Earth are just a small part of that process.
Since I learned about Charles Darwin's theory on evolution it has changed my way of thinking completely. I actually like the Buddhist religion a lot. They do not worship a god.  It's almost like a lifestyle than a practice of religion. They meditate in search for enlightenment.
Well I don't meditate, but i am searching for the same thing. That being Enlightenment, or absolute truth basically. Different people have different opinions on what it is. Most want to live eternally, including myself. I don't mean living to be a million, but to make myself known through my actions and what I'v done. I'm not going to go out and become a public speaker or find a cure for a major disease, but since I'm going to die someday i am not going to let myself become unknown when i do. I plan to live eternally through my family. I am going to do my best to have children and raise them to become proper members of society. I want to leave a piece of myself with them, so that hopefully when they have children it will be passed along to them.
I am scared when it comes to raising my child. Like any parent i'm just afraid to see them get hurt in the world we live in today. weather its heartbreak from a boy or girl at school, falling off the swing, or even seeing them lose someone important to death's hands. I lost my mother at a young age, so I just want to make sure my kids don't have to go through the same heartache and have to grow up without a real mother figure. Although the best i could do is teach them right from wrong and hope they make the right decisions.